Light and Shadow

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

One month from now

I will walk in the aisle of the chapel

To offer myself as an offering of love

A holocaust for the service of the kingdom.

I’m asking myself

Is this your most Holy Will of God?

Is this authentic or a mere deception?

I might get wrong your mind dear God

O my child

Don’t you know that I’ve consecrated you

When you were still in the womb of your mother

to be my own.

Why are you still in doubt?

Are not my care, love, guidance and grace

Not enough for you to prove that I love you?

I want you as my own.

Dear God, yes I’m afraid

But I’m very thankful that you chose me

To be your very own

You stayed with me from child.

Help me to be secured in your hands

Never doubting, never seeking for comfort

Never waiting for praises and recognition

From others beside you.

Help me to respond to your will

With courage, with faith, with love

Keep me be attentive and listening to you

Every moment of my life. Amen.

Dialogue with God

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

This morning I began to ask myself

Do I need to be talented and intelligent

in order to be known?

Is there greatness on this?

Do I have to be popular in order to be a nun?

There’s no greatness on such

Remember what I have said

Let the children come to me

For to them belong the kingdom of God

O Lord why should I aspire for greatness

You are with me.

You alone are my desire

To possess in my life

I’m already yours, and I possessed you already

My heart belongs to you.

I am still insecure not to be recognized

Afraid in my passiveness to contribute

So weak and limited to give.

I don’t need your talents

What I need is your “yes”.

Yes to my will, a heart to love me and others

A freedom to be the best of yourself.

Yes, Lord, true greatness is

Not surmountable to my talents

To the intelligence and my being active

But by the deeds which could do a lot of miracles

To the troubled hearts,

To the stony hearts

To the world of hatred,

Revenge, competition and jealousy.

One day I will come to deliberate you

From the world and take you to my Father in heaven.

I am God´s Creation

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

I’m a wonderful creation of God

Full of wonder and mystery

A unique creature – so rare and precious

So delicate and fragile.

God has granted my being

A feeling to feel his love

A mind to know his thoughts   

A heart to feel his love.

He has created me

In his image and likeness

He has breathed me with life

He has filled my soul with his being.

God is gentle and kind.

He graciously formed me.

He carved me into a stature he wanted me to be

He gently placed me in his palm.

O Yahweh, your love is beyond compare

Your thoughts are beyond my comprehension

You are so good

Your love is without measure.

As you have created me and formed me

Help me not resist your hands

Which gently molds my life and be open to your transforming love.

Make me an open person

Open to be formed and broken

Open to be lost and found

Open to be loved and hated

Open to be accepted and rejected

Open to your will – everyday

Open to see you in myself, others and the world

In your creation and in the church. Amen.

Pangarap

Mulang pagkabata’y, mga mata’y

Namulat sa pagibig

Makapaglingkod sa tao’t sa Diyos

Ay inaasam-asam nitong aking puso

Diyos na maawain at mapagkalinga

‘di bibiguin adhikain ng isang bata

ngayo’y pangarap na isang ganap

aking minimithi-mithi

1986 mga ilang araw at buwan na lamang

kaganapan ng isang pangarap

ay matatamasa

subali’t may mga gulo at bagabag

na dumarating sa aking isipan at puso

ano ang mangyayari pa?

Panginoon, nalalaman mo ang adhikain

Ng isang kaluluwa

Batid mo ang mabuti

Batid mo ang magiging bukas.

Sa iyo o panginoon

Ibinibigay ko ang aking sarili

Mangyari nawa ang kalooban mo sa akin. Amen.

Panaghoy

Ako’y nahihirapan dini sa ating buhay

Punong-puno ng misteryo’t kababalaghan

Hindi matalagahan, ni malaman ang kinabukasan.

Hiwaga’y nababalot sa bawat buhay

Malabong isipin ang paroroonan

Kay Yahweh lamang ang sagot ng ating gustong malaman.