01 November 2009

ONDOY in Manila

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL.

                        Freaks of Nature Pictures
What a deluge Ondoy had for the Filipinos.
I was struck with sadness, anxiety and helplessness.
My ears and eyes were fixed on the videos, links, and feeds
in the process, discovered to pop out radio DZBB of gmanews.tv.
To fill up the space from mission to home.

Prayers . . . endless prayers and hopes as armor
Good bayanihan spirit moved heaven and earth.
Clearing the debris, mud, garbage and burying the dead.
Going back to normalcy
Is a struggle witnessed by the world.

I had water and floods appeared in my dream.
Talked to one señora about an experience of one heavy rain
and denuded that part of Quezon City.
Mentioned to her that the place I was born as told by my mother
If ever flooded, Manila will be submerged in water.

A week later, Ondoy´s tragedy happened in Manila.
Left me a void and a reflection on suffering.
Why can conversations around pouring rain
and why a dream of water and flood
will come true after 40 years?  What a timing?                                

Many experiences to learn from Ondoy,
but more challenges for us as a nation and as one world.
To move fast in order to survive catastrophes.                             
Make initiatives to heal the earth.
And for us men and women - to unite to save our planet.

02 October 2009

I AM, MY MASTERPIECE

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL.
I am a beautiful masterpiece
Woven by different peoples in my life
Interwoven by many experiences
Beautiful, sad, joyful and sorrowful.

I choose my feelings and thoughts
I am a powerful and valiant woman. 
Like a snake with its striking energy
I am crowned with glory and I honor myself.

I am not defined by others
Nor fit into other´s culture and expectations.
I choose what I do.
I have an innate strength within me.

I’ll topple my negativities
I will claim my glory and might over these.
The inner child, my original self is the real I am
I now reclaim it for it’s the masterpiece that I am.

It’s pure, innocent, undefiled and delicate.
I make my own destiny.
I can make myself who I want to be.
I have a power over myself.

I take care of myself.
I know and love myself the way I am.
I love myself without ifs and buts
But simply love and respect the way I am.

I am my masterpiece, it’s the beautiful self 
that I now allow to emerge
The self I reclaim.
For I am the author of my own life, my masterpiece. 


Forest Pictures


EMERGENCE OF LIGHT

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL.
Like a tiny ball in the universe
That flickers light in the darkness
A tiny spark is enough
To awaken every fiber of my being
That has connected me to the womb of my mother.

The emerging light has allowed me to be reborn
Like a tiny seed in this vast universe
My soul is never lost again
For the light in me keeps burning
And I am consumed by the fire.


DARK NIGHT OF MY SOUL

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL.
I search for you in my lonely nights

Crying out in anguish and pain
Why happiness drifted so fast?
Creating a vacuum that is never filled up.



      
Fleeting joys before me have never satisfied this thirst
I yearn for you but you are hidden
O my poor, my pitiful soul
Darkness, emptiness and loneliness, they are with me.

I look for you everywhere and never found.  

Darkness covers the night
Lo and behold, the night became my might and knight
Combating the evil and monster I have created in me.

01 September 2009

LETTER TO FRIENDS AND READERS

Dear Friends and Readers,

I want to share with you these poems, prayers, song, quotations and journal that I composed and written in the span of 25 years.

Hope you enjoy reading them.

Blessings and peace in God.

Esperanza






LIFE IN A CIRCLE

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

Life in a circle…

revolving, twirling

old and new

being and becoming

dying and birthing

called to be one…

One with the Divine.


FRENTE A MI CASA

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL
Cada vez que yo despertaba,



Detrás de las ventanas de mi cuarto
Mis ojos se iban a la maravillosa vista
cochabamba tra la pioggia e il serenoEn dirección a la cordillera del Tunari.   


Me imagino que Dios me invita a ir dentro de su corazón.
Cochabamba, Bolivia, mí querido país
Empecé a hablar con buenos días y como estas?
Hasta llegar a las estructuras mas complejas de la gramática
Además, disfruté las otras actividades
como la hora social, el baile y las conferencias.


La vida que ustedes y yo enfrentaremos
Creo que esta en los tiempos de la gramática también
Estamos aprendiendo, estábamos hablando, y habremos mejorado
No solamente en español, sino en otros aspectos de nuestra vida.


La gracia que Dios me dio de vivir aquí por cinco meses
era suficiente para aguantar los desafíos de este programa
Y sobre todo, tenía que buscarlo y encontrarlo
En el silencio de mis oraciones y en los anhelos de mi corazón.


Para mi las imagines de las montañas frente a mi casa
Me muestran de vez en cuando que yo estuve en el cerro de mi vida real
De que la altura es la profundidad del amor de Jesús.
De que Dios se me dio a través de ustedes, de mis compañeros,
de los profesores, de los empleados y de la administración.


A los chicos que yo he acompañado en Villa Pagador
Me dieron la claridad de mi vocación, la clase de tesoro que no puedo
Cambiar ni por el mayor tesoro del mundo.
La experiencia es muy profunda y sagrada para mi misma.


Mi alma quiere quedarse aquí en sud América.
Pero en la realidad no se puede.
Me voy pero llevaré conmigo el recuerdo del Instituto
Lo aprendido y las otras cosas el exceso de mi equipaje
porque yo compré mucho en la cancha en la sección de ropa usada.


No es fácil dejarlos ni salir de Cochabamba
Especialmente a mi familia boliviana, que me dio un buen trato
Mi trabajo voluntario en Villa Pagador y a la familia Maryknoll.

Después de este curso, me voy a Argentina
Y después, comenzare mi misión en Panamá.


Espero, que tengan un buen tiempo hasta llegar a sus destinos
Finalmente voy a decirles CHAU. . . HASTA LA VISTA
Y en cuanto nos encontremos, 
BUENOS DIAS, COMO ESTAN?


LIFE LIVED IN LOVE

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL.

Life fires with aglow
as the morning rises with the sun
covering the earth with its light
giving its warm embrace
and a welcoming love.

Life journeys is a life lived in love
for you and for me
it's a joy that pervades the day
a moment to hold on
and a time to behold for all eternity.






FONDEST MEMORIES

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

Fondest thoughts

fondest love

fondest presence

in the Holy Eucharist.


Fondest gifts

fondest present

of Christ's presence

in the altar

of body and blood

in the adoration chapel

.... the blessed sacrament.


Jesus present

and Jesus' presence

allowing me experience his love.


O gentle and dear Jesus

I feel peace and love

flowing from you

flowing from your heart

renew and create in me

a deepest longing for you

always and forever

till my final resting place

find you in my heart. Amen.

HIS PRESENCE FOREVER

POEMS ARE SONGS OF THE HEART AND SOUL

Sometimes I plan where will I be
and ask where I've been
for the past decades of my life....



Now I wonder and ponder at the gift of the present and His presence
- the suprises in life
- the gifts that I've received
- the listening hearts of friends
and gift of friendship with Jesus
is enough to thank Him for 
every moment of this precious life.  

Embraced as One

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